Attention seeker?

Last Friday, I told Baby about my feeling… A feeling that he dint show me enough care and concern… it all started when I went for my primary school classmates gathering @ Bugis… Baby dint even bother to ask me what time the gathering will end? Do I need him to fetch me back? I sms-ed him and he dint really reply me… he dint even inform me that he his whereabouts…. He don't even tell sms me when he knock off from work... and dint tell me when he left home to meet his friend.... He had fixed a appointment with his friend after he knew I was “book” for that evening… I called him a few times, and finally at 11pm, I ask whether he is still with his friend and informed him that I will be leaving soon… that was the 1st time that he realized that he should drive me home… however, he told me to wait 45minutes before he can reached… hmmm, that would be 11.45pm?? I took MRT back…. Talked to him till about 2am…

I know that most of the times when people make promises, there are high tendency that the promises will be forgotten… However, the promises to love someone and take good care of your love one should not even be a promise… it is actually from your heart and it should last forever….

Since I was a young gal… I always hope that if I found my special one, then I should be the one in his life… I will be the most important one and the one that he would cherish for all his life… I am a gal who needs a lot of time and attention… I wanna my love one to be with me every moment if possible~~

It just because that I am an attention seeker…

Camping @ East Coast

It's been such a long time since i login to my blog.... hehe... am I being lazy or simply busy…?

Baby and I had went to the sea-side for picnic some weeks ago… Therefore we had this plan to camp overnight @ East Coast Park… hehe… Baby and I had went to the Giant to get a 6-Men tent… We are not aware of the different between monodome and waterproof…. Therefore we just got the “good” and cheap 1… the monodome tent which cost us $35.90~~ happy :)

Baby’s parents drive us to the park in the eveing of Good Friday (2nd April 2010)… Baby’s mummy stroll along the beach, Baby trying his luck to fly his kite, while his Papa sit on the stone bench enjoying the sea breeze… And I stay in the tent (avoiding the sun) and taking pictures~~

I am very amazed that Baby had KEEP trying to fly his kite for hours even though ther is NO WIND… hahahha… of cos he was just trying his luck and running on the beach with his kite like a small little kid~~ sometime, I just love him cos he is always so cute n sweet, innocent and kind little boy boy~~ Everyone was helping him…. and he tried till the sky was dark -_- hahahaha

When Baby’s parent left and we spent quite some time talking n talking… enjoying the nite~~ We were so tired that we fell asleep around 10pm… I slept in the tent with my sleeping bag, while Baby slept with half his lower body outside the tent as he claim that the tant was very warm~~

Early in the morning 4am, something bitten my toe… and I thought it was just an insect had came into the tent.. I covered my legs with the sleeping bag and continue sleeping~~ some time later around 5am, I heard so noise from the corner of the tent, I thought that I was just the wind, when I nearly dose off, I heard the noise again!!

I jump out of the tent and wake Baby up… “Baby, Baby wake up….!! There is something inside!!” We shined the torchlight into the tent… and… there was a CRAB!!!! Baby still ask me “with me this security guard, how come this crab can go in huh??” This stupid “security guard” never “protects” me…. Faint… I wanna fire him…!! Hahaha… We managed to “catch” it using the mass-tin, n released it back to the beach…

That was a good start for a great Saturday… haha… We went cycling and some food in the afternoon~~ the pedal of the bicycle drop off in the middle of the path~~ We were supposed to leave on sat evening, however, I ask baby to extend the camping for another day… Ya, that was a very SMART idea… cos, it started raining from evening… We thought that the rain will stop.. Therefore, we decided to go parkway to get some BBQ pit n food…. And the rain dint stop until 11pm..

We started our BBQ, finish our food and…. It started raining again~~ the wind was strong, and the rain was heavy… the material of the tent is NOT WATERPFOOF!! Water start “leaking” into out tent…

Baby used UNBERALLA inside the tent!! WAHAHAHAH… and he was all wet… as he was at the “frontline”..

We were too tired to move and the rain was too heavy… therefore we decided to stay in the tent and continue sleeping~~ ya, another “smart” move…. and the tent started to FLOOD… the rain water was very cold, and everything got wet… and we were soak in water before we decided to get out of our tent, and realize that we are the only survivors on the beach… there were so many tents around the night before.. and there is not a single soul to be found now.. The whole beach belongs to us privately~~ lolx…

The damage and “too-waterproof” tent was discarded… now we now wat is monodome….

We will be buying a waterproof tent!! WE WILL BE BACK…. It was a fun weekend~~ hehe.. With Baby around, I enjoy the 3D2N camp~~

Acident along PIE....

Today, i woke up early to go fetch my dad from changi airport.... i was realli early lor.... his flight will reach Singapore at 1010hours, N i leave my place at 0910hours...

Was happily driving my dad's car, tinking that I will reach Terminal 1 quite early and can just shop ard there.... Driving happily along PIE in Lane 1... happily, happily happily... den just before Paya Lebar there, got many road work... every1 start filtering to the left lane.. I oso followed.... den the KIA in fornt of me JAMMED brakes....!!! I cannot react fast enough.. and BANG!!!! OH MY GOD.... holy shit!!! I hit to the rear of the KIA.... haii... both of us drove back to lane 1... and she alight the car, i followed... den how? I told her to have private settlement... den she ok.. and ask me how much i wanna pay her.... -_- i was like "huh reaction".... I told her to go my dad's workshop den she don want... she want to go her own workshop.... I ask if she can go to dad's workshop again, n she say she will consider... haii... I was having the feeling that I will get a super scolding from dad... is his car lor... and the headlamp n foglame, bumper etc all gone case... I super super super stress.... but gt to act as if i was ok... we exchange details and continue our journey.... she was like 2yrs younger den mi, but she look n act like 4 or 5 yr older... stress... I called Baby million of times but he dint pick up the fone... den i tried calling my sis, dint ans oso.... I was so stress n scare lor.... damn... haii... i very sad cos wat if i gg die den no 1 hear my last voice.... every1 don wanna pick up my call T.T...... the 1st person i called n i called millions of times, but baby fone after ringing keep gg into voice mail... i hate voice mail, that's y i never have voice mail for my mobile.... stupid service... cos when u gt voice mail, it will only ring a few times n it will go into voice mail service. But if u don have the service, it will ring for at least a minute... anyway, i don care abt tis stupid thing now....

When i fetch dad, n when he saw his car... I tink i saw fire on his face and head and eyes and shoulders... Luckily his fren ard... he was quite "cool"... until his fren alight... haii... got a scolding... I realli dint wanted this to happen.... haii.... sad....

Luckily, the lady called back after my dad talk to her... she agreed to come our workshop... and my sis will collect her car tmr... as for my dad's car... haii... i don know wat will i get from him tmr.... gg to work wif him on his car.... i scare~~~

I had been so unlucky recently... so many accidents.... can i consider 4 in a month??

no mood, low morale, sian x 100000times, unlucky.... I need more luck.... i need hugs.... haii... or maybe i am lucky cos the car is not BMW or some expersive car... been tinking abt this whole day... haii... "luckily" is a KIA... -_-''

since afternnon, Suddenly got a feeling that no 1 realli care... maybe i am just not that kind of person that deserve pple's LTC... maybe i am just not good fren enough that pple oso heck care abt mi... just a nobody.. suddenly gt a feeling that i need to reflect on myself... how many will be there when i need some1?? family n friends?? haii~~

Last day of 2009 and 1st day of 2010

I feel I am very very blessed that the very last second of 2009 was with baby. And WE ARE TOGETHER since the very 1st second of the year 2010.... We had dinner with baby's parents and den went mount faber.. Sheena n her family was with us up there too... Baby and myself spent a few hours on mount faber and watched the fireworks... Everything was so nice and so sweet....

Some of my reflections for year 2009:

a) Feel lucky to meet n know buddy... COS HE INTRO BABY TO ME
b) Blessed that BABY CAME INTO MY LIFE
c) Sorry that I might had disappointed a few of my friends... sometime, I might be forgetful in things that I had said or done... Hope everything will be forgiven and forget:>
d) Blessed that my best friends are still my best friends... and thank god that he had send them to me... and thanks that they had been with my throughout my depression/moody/down period... Thanks for all the time spent with me:>
e) I am very sorry that I had been "angry" with baby many times, should have more angry management... and not make baby sad
f) Regret to leave ASTAR cos till now still have not get a full time job. Felt useless cos cant save money to prepare for future.


My goals and aim for year 2010:

a) More angry management (actually is baby want de... -_-'' hahaha... of cos i oso hope i will be able to control my temper... hahaha)
b) Find a full time job
c) save at least 12K to my savings... ( provided that i got a full time job)
d) Slim down and prepare to get married if baby wants to propose and marry me... hahaha...
e) Hoping that everyone will be happy and healthy


For the moment is like that ba... hehe...

ALL THE BEST FOR 2010.... BABY, u must JIA YOU oso!!!!

Christmas 2009

This is the first christmas with baby.... hehe...

I tink 2-3week b4 christmas, baby told me that we gg meet his frens for christmas countdown... CHRISTMAS COUNTDOWN?!?!?!???? FAINT lor... i hate crowded place.... super faint... but oso cannot say anything... so got to agree lor... Sian X 1000 times... -_-'''

Even though i agree to it... but seriously the moment i tink of countdown... i super cannot take it.. maybe cos i getting old liao... hahaha... anyway, i started to call n 'complain' to all my close friends abt this event... complain all the way till christmas eve.... lolx...

Anyway, I pass baby's present to him abt 2weeks b4 christmas... and I insist him to open it... cos i wanna know he like it a not.... cos it's a pair of rabbit... very the cute de hor... hehe

1week before christmas, baby gave me my present.... hmmmm.. is a supplement that i always wanted... hehe...

ANyway, I am still nagging abt the countdown to all my friends....

On christmas' eve, baby told me that we will be meeting his firends at 7pm at Marina barage. That afternoon, Sheena they all came to my place majong... we played till around 6.30pm den baby super unhappy when he knew we are still playing when he came back to my place fm office at about 6pm. Anyway, i oso don really care... haha... I feel so bad now... cos on that day, I was thinking "why do we need to reach so early when the countdown start at 11.59pm??"

Anyway, we rush down there... and in the end, Baby supprise me again... cos we went to Marina Pier... Baby made a reservation at the Riverboat for 2.... :> I would said that it was an expensive dinner... and I was super giddy on the boat, cos the waves was quite rough... But I am really very touched by all the things Baby had arranged.... Atthe end of the dinner, Baby told me that he needs to go to the Gents.... den he came back few minutes later with a present placed on the food tray and behaved like a little waiter... and he passed the present to me... I was very surprise again... cos he had already given me a present already.... i could guess wat was in the little box.... when i open it... it was a part of a fishing equipment components... baby bought me a fishing rod!!!!! and the fishing line and the parts are all pink n red.... he was sad that the fishing rod he couldn't get mi a pink/red one.... Baby, thank you for everything and I realli love it a lot.... especially the Christmas card with me and baby's pictures.... The best thing that I every recieved for this christmas is BABY!!! I wanna spend the next 10000000000000000000000years with baby.... LOVE U MOST...

2nd Oversea trip, Genting 29th Oct 09 - 1st Nov 09

Baby n mi went to the genting (our 2nd oversea trip)....

Went to take the Five Star Travel coach at Boon Lay shopping Centre... On the way the Genting, Baby was very excited... and i was sleeping all the while... haha... he told mi that the scenary was very the nice.... hmm... but i prefer to meet Mr. Zhou Gong.... den reach there he very sleepy lor.... haha... slp till the next morning in First World resort... faint...

1st day, it was raining the whole day.... so baby cannot go theme park... we went to eat Marry Brown... Baby oso feel that it is nice.... den the whole day we just walk ard and take pictures... he super wat lor.... keep insisting to go theme park... raining lor... LIKE A KID... super buai ta han... hahaha...

2nd day, we went to outdoor theme park... play the whole day... i very tired lor... i cannot imagine that next time i old le, still need to go theme park with my kids... i tink i will die lor... a big baby is enough le... every game wanna play lor... faint.. den he insisted to play the tokens games to win a soft toy for me... faint lor, spent a lot n dint manage to get anything... haha... not lucky enough... den it started to rain again.... went indoor to buy the indoor theme park tickets...
Play whole day... tired but very fun.... hehe...

Den stay in the arcade n play games... won many game tickets and exchange for many gifts.. haha...

Went to take the cable-car with baby... he super super happy lor.... haha... love him a lot..

Went in the casino, play RM60 den baby heart pain... faint... den i decided to leave... but we drink a lot of milo inside... haha..

3rd day, after breakfast at the super crowded resort cafe... went walk walk n den go back sg le...

Had a lot fun over there... BAby, LOVE U....

Just some thoughts...

It's just some thoughts.....

Today, Baby bought me a note-book for my new part-time job de *note- taking*...

Initially, i wanted a cover with many many colours.... But Baby feel that the 1 with plain cover is nicer....

His point of view : Simple is nice... life should be simplified....

My point of view : Life should be colourful.... colour adds life to days...

Everyone have different values and different views in different things...

This make each of us a unique personnel...

Anyway, I just choose the 1 that Baby like lor.... ^_^

Today, baby shared with me that 2 of his friends (a couple who had been 2gather for almost 5years) was having some relationship troubles.... It just make me feel that communication is an impt factor being a couple... Hmmm.. How should I put it...? Because the longer period the couple attached to each other (Physically attached to each other, seeing each other)... They always thought that the other party should understand and know them well enough... well enough to know what are they thinking about or how are they feeling... cos the thinking n feeling of "we have been togather for so long already... U should know me"..... But the fact is... Male and Female are TOTALLY DIFFERENT... That's why they are called the "OPPOSITE"... Being 2gather doesn't make u understand/know each other.... If that is the case, why dint u know and understand ALL of ur colleagues since u SEE and BE WITH them 5days per week....? Anyway, as a couple, As years go by... the more u tink that he/she should know u better and better... however, without communication to each other on ur feeling, thoughts, or even ur love, etc... nothing is gonna happen.... the distance between both of u is actually drifting apart... Therefore, sometime being direct and straight-forward, or even asking qns, and telling him/her simple things like :

-U make my day cos.....

-It hurts me when u.....

-the event happened just now actually affects me....

-why are u feeling sad? Had I done something that upset u?

-I don't understand why are u doing this...? In my point of veiw..

-What I actually want is.....

-U make me feels that I am nt as impt as ur frens.... because......

-I need a listening ears today.... I do not need any suggestion at this moment...

-We have not been talking these few days, how about a coffee @ a cafe??

Understanding = communication...

Love requires understanding, muture respects, time, patience, communication, trust, faithful, honestly, caring, concern, believed, toleration (to naggings?? hahaha), and even white lies (lolx).. there might be more, but this is what i can tink of at this moment....