Married Life in our Home sweet home

We had officially moved into our Home Sweet Home on 23rd July 2011. It’s nice to have our own house. I can do whatever I wanna do in my hse. we can have our very big personal area….

But when it is a headache when comes to:-
• house loan (It’s better now… Yesterday, we went down to the HDB brance to change the CPF contribution for the hse… No more Giro deduction monthly from now on… happy)
• PUB bills (every mth diff leh… no average amount), Town council Payments ($48/mth), Hp bills (Cant avoid)
• Insurances (A must have for protection….. maybe more to protect the other half …. I always scare that if something bad happen to 1 of us…. Must at least left something for the other half)
• CLEANING the hse, (I’m lucky cos baby will vacuum and mop the floor every Sunday… The other time he help to clean the window while I was taking a nap… ) Yesterday, he asked me to help him clean the aircon filters… but in the end he do it himself…. I think he might be afraid that I climb too high and fall? Hehe…. Anyway, it’s sweet~~
• cleaning the FOUR hamster cages (hmmmm… I know the hamsters are mine…. But… u know me la… I’m always 3-minutes de… now I seldom play with them le… maybe oso bcos they are placed outside the hse… so Baby taking care them for me… hehe) Maybe that’s why he don’t wanna let me buy guinea pig… lol…
• Bianco (Baby will bring him for walks… sometime he wake up early like 5am to bring him down…. He says Bianco very Ke Lian to be at home whole day…. I oso got help wor… I bathe him myself hor…. And I play with him… hehehe…)
• Disagreement/arguments/unhappiness (this occurs when 2 pple stay 2gather with different living habits, different living culture, different bring-up. Baby hates me whenever I suddenly hot-/short temper… I keep nagging… But I don’t understand why he never listen and never understand. But I would says that Baby is very nice to me, he will always let me win when the situation is bad, or even when I am just being a “ass-hole”… lolx… Overall, am lucky that Baby will always try to know and understand why I gt so fed up…. And he will promise to change… even though his promise always lasted few days or few weeks… and he will FORGETS… lol…. And the cycle repeat again~~

To all my friends out there, it’s always nice to stay 2gather, enjoy each other companion, and the feeling of missing each other when u never meet for few days…

But it is a total different story when u comes to LIVE 2gather, and seeing each other every single day. Everyone have to make adjustments. No one is perfect. And always forgive and forget dealing with small matters…. And married is not just 2 pple issues… It’s 2 families thingy….

I don’t know what will come next…. I but don’t see any easy life in a married life…. Maybe u can when u marry a millionaire (and he gives u a lot of his money to spend!! No point he don’t share anything with u right… lol), and u heck care about everything u see or he do… U don’t bother about how much he show his care and concern, and u got a maid or many maids, and u can do whatever u wished for, he don bother what u do or where u go….. LOL…. But I don’t tink it is a married life le…. Maybe it’s easier to get a Sugar-Daddy… lolx…

Therefore…. Married life is never easy!! Hahahhahahaha…. But I world still say it is enjoyable and if ur hubby is as loving as mine…. LOL….

Journey toward our HOMR SWEET HOME

Time passes very fast.

I remember that Baby and myself went for our 2nd HDB appointment at HDB HUB on 3 Nov 2010. That was the day we officially have our flat, our very first asset.

Life started to be busy since that day...

Finding a contractor/interior designer, browsing through countless designing magazines, choosing our theme, choosing the floor/wall tiles, the window grill colour and design, deciding on the false ceiling design, cove lights design, buying toiletries, down lights, ceiling lights, basins, kitchen sink, shower sprays, taps..

And currently, towards the end of the renovation, choosing the colour for the walls, cabinets, wardrobe, TV console, type of curtain, sofa, coffe table, dinning table, build-in oven...etc...

It was fun shopping for the electronic applicators, cooking utensil, carpet, and many many small items... But seriously, it's very tired... Rushing from 1 place to another place is not a nice thing to do it few times weekly.... I believed that baby oso feel the same..

We had a lot arguments, different point of views, unhappiness, sadness, ups and down, EM days.... It was very tough during the past few months, decision making is oso not easy...

But after so many months of hard work, our HOME is almost done!!!
Owning a house is not easy, it drained all our savings, even monthly payout... But, no matter wat, it is gg to be OUR HOME SWEET HOME..

Even though there are still more to come, I'm ready to build the lovely home with Baby^^

BABY, we must Jia You... Love u alot...

For far away u~~

I saw u today (on skype) and realized how far we have grown. I know I should talk to you and ask how you're doing. And I really wish that I could. But it just occured to me that we are strangers now. It's ok that you have moved on, it's ok that you are busy. I know that many things are different now. I've been staying strong. And I know u had too. Jia you in your life, career, relationship and new friendship~~

We didn't promise that we will be best friends forever.
We didn't need to- we just knew we'd always have each other. :)

almost a year

Been almost a year since I last login to my blog... Many things had happened within a year...

Baby had proposed to me on e 15/08/2010 @ lower seletar reservoir with e candles stating "WILL U MARRY ME", and now I am Happily married to baby. We had our ROM on the 10/10/2010 at Sentosa...We had bought a 4-room corner 104 meter-square flat at Yishun @ almost 400k... Officially received our keys on 03/11/2010... Renovation had just started on 14/03/2011... Hoping everything will run smoothly...

Resign from dad's company and started a new job as a laboratory executive in NTU on Nov 2010. Having Yiliang as my buddy is 1 of the best things in my work life.. it's quite tiring to work here sometime.. Btw, baby had oso joined NTU 1week after me.. So, we go work n home everyday... Sweet~~

Jac had resign fm NTU early this year and is now on her new track of life and career.. Happy for her but miss her a lot~
Sheena is still happily with Thomas and now planning for her project B... we are still meeting monthly for some catch up.. Most of the time @ JPT. Cos it's near my dad's place... Hehe..
Cb had been promoted in her workplace n seems to enjoy her work much more... i looking forward tat she will find her mr. Right soon:)
Peiqi had join e DBS n seems to be busy everyday.. Quite sad tat dint really tok or c her nowadays...
YiRu had join SIA!! I tink tat's her dream to fly ard.. Finally can travel around e world!!
Diana had brought Filipe back to Singapore... And all of us had officially met him... Baby keep saying he's handsome... Hehe... Indeed he is... Hahahaha... Most ang mo quite nice looking de wAh...
Pearline had delivered Faith on e 17/03/11, her 2nd child after Joy Joy... So happy for her... Gal, must Jia you in ur family..

Currently for myself, I am busy with the Hse renovation.. And we are trying to save as much as we can as the Hse had drained all our saving and monthly salary.. And there's still more to come..Sometimes, I complain to baby tat life is tough cos we do not have spare money for ourselves.. Can't go oversea... Can't buy things... Etc...

However, I know deep in my heart... As long tat baby is there for me... It's enough~~

PS3 God of Wars 3

Finally i got the feeling that it’s a Saturday… Baby no longer required to work alternate morning and late shifts… now he only needs to do normal/late shift… which means that no working on Saturday!! Yeah!! Even though he still needs to go back for some patching every 3rd Saturday of each month… but compare to the last few months… happy~

We wake up early in the morning yesterday… Baby wanted to get a Sata 20Gb hard-disk from Sim Lim… He said that he learn a new technique to back up my laptop info/pictures. But we dint manage to find the item….

Since the release of the God of War III, I know that he wish to own the game. However, I told him that he already had the Street Fighter game, and din’t wants him to buy. But actually, I had planned to buy the game for him these few days, and give it to him as a surprise… I knew that he had a lot of interest in this game… cos I had seen him playing the GOW I on his PSP for hundreds of times… even after he had completed the game for several times…

When baby start checking the retail price for GOWIII in Sim Lim, I wanted to say “no” to buying the game. Cos I wanted give it to him as a little surprise present, my plan is i buy the game and put it on his desk, so when he come home and found the game on his desk. But my plan failed, because the whole trip yesterday, from Sim Lim to Suntec to North Point to Yishun central, his eyes lights up whenever he sees the game… Therefore, I decided to get the game for him yesterday. So, surprise no more~~

He was such a little kid, so happy and keep saying that he is the main character Kratos… -_- but I know that he is very excited about the new game that he wanted for so long.

Ever though there is no surprise as what I initially planned, but Baby is still very very happy… he took some pictures of the game box, the invoice and keep telling me that he so happy that I bought the game for him. Just like a little kid…

That’s my baby~~

朋友就是把你看透了,还能喜欢你的人…

Come into my blog and I suddenly realized that Baby and I had been together for 295days … I feel that time passes very fast… And I suddenly feel that it had been quite some time since I meet up some of my friends….

When we were young, we feel that friendship is so important. Our friends always come first no matter what… That was when we were not earning much, and what we are searching for is just some plain happiness… We started to grow, from youngster to young adult… From penniless to rich little person… Maybe we are rich in our bank, our life, rich in some branded things that we own… but how many of us are rich in life and friends?

That day, I was wondering… Who should I call when I seriously need someone to accompany me, to be with me… There is a quote stating that.. 朋友就是把你看透了,还能喜欢你的人… There were times that we are all in so good terms, however, there were so moments that we feel that we do not know each other that well… There might be times that we suspect each other… but就算是believe,中间也藏了一个lie. However, I know that if there is any lie, that lie will not be the 1 which will harm anyone. It can be a lie to make a situation into a win-win situation, or, it can be a white lie… the type of lie is depending on how we look at it.

I was chatting to Jac on the phone the other day… I was telling her that god is fair in a way. He will not let us have the best of everything.. we will not have all the best friends/people my our side all the times… because they will move on and search for their own best friends… Maybe he give u 1 person, he will take away another 1… I don’t know why I got so upset when I told baby about some incients in the past…

I happened to go into Qi’s blog, and realized and remember that Qi, Alvin and mi used to go out together often.. But we seldom even chat recently. And I realize that I can’t even remember Yiru’s mobile number now… The numbers that I used to call so often... And I had to search the phonebook for the numbers… I do not receive much sms from them… I don not know how are they and how’s their work and bf,,, I have not meet Qi, Yiru, Pearline, Chunbing, Diana, Jac, Ade etc for such a long time… no time to catch up, no time for a chill up, no time for a movie, no time for just a coffee…. Anyway, I know that it requires 2 hands to clap, not just a party can do everything.. Different people got different views, different concepts, and different things they want in their life… It’s actually a choice…

My routine...?

Beginning of the month: Sian…

Mid-month: Almost there…

End-month: Pay-day J

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Monday: Not the worse day… But hoping that weekend will arrive earlier

Tuesday: it’s still the beginning of the week

Wednesday: 2 more days to Friday

Thursday: it’s just another day

Friday: Weekend… wondering what to do @ night… thinking about mahjong~

Saturday: Don’t feel like doing anything… just rot around @ home… Thinking about friends and relationship… Thinking about all incidents in the past and incidents for the week…

Sunday: Feeling down, hoping that it is a Saturday, so can really utilize the weekend... feeling tired

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Morning: Waking up feeling tired… just hoping to sleep for a few more minutes

Afternoon: Thinking about lunch…

Late noon: Hoping to knock off from work asap

Evening: Dinner and online games

Night: 9pm TV drama… Chatting with Baby… Brush teeth and Good night… hoping for sweet dreams

Mid-night: Sometime wake up feeling terrible, and having shortage of breath, Nightmares? Sometimes, the nightmare make me feel scared, anxious, or upset… Nightmares are not real and cannot harm me, but I do not feel safe even when I am awake.

Attention seeker?

Last Friday, I told Baby about my feeling… A feeling that he dint show me enough care and concern… it all started when I went for my primary school classmates gathering @ Bugis… Baby dint even bother to ask me what time the gathering will end? Do I need him to fetch me back? I sms-ed him and he dint really reply me… he dint even inform me that he his whereabouts…. He don't even tell sms me when he knock off from work... and dint tell me when he left home to meet his friend.... He had fixed a appointment with his friend after he knew I was “book” for that evening… I called him a few times, and finally at 11pm, I ask whether he is still with his friend and informed him that I will be leaving soon… that was the 1st time that he realized that he should drive me home… however, he told me to wait 45minutes before he can reached… hmmm, that would be 11.45pm?? I took MRT back…. Talked to him till about 2am…

I know that most of the times when people make promises, there are high tendency that the promises will be forgotten… However, the promises to love someone and take good care of your love one should not even be a promise… it is actually from your heart and it should last forever….

Since I was a young gal… I always hope that if I found my special one, then I should be the one in his life… I will be the most important one and the one that he would cherish for all his life… I am a gal who needs a lot of time and attention… I wanna my love one to be with me every moment if possible~~

It just because that I am an attention seeker…

Camping @ East Coast

It's been such a long time since i login to my blog.... hehe... am I being lazy or simply busy…?

Baby and I had went to the sea-side for picnic some weeks ago… Therefore we had this plan to camp overnight @ East Coast Park… hehe… Baby and I had went to the Giant to get a 6-Men tent… We are not aware of the different between monodome and waterproof…. Therefore we just got the “good” and cheap 1… the monodome tent which cost us $35.90~~ happy :)

Baby’s parents drive us to the park in the eveing of Good Friday (2nd April 2010)… Baby’s mummy stroll along the beach, Baby trying his luck to fly his kite, while his Papa sit on the stone bench enjoying the sea breeze… And I stay in the tent (avoiding the sun) and taking pictures~~

I am very amazed that Baby had KEEP trying to fly his kite for hours even though ther is NO WIND… hahahha… of cos he was just trying his luck and running on the beach with his kite like a small little kid~~ sometime, I just love him cos he is always so cute n sweet, innocent and kind little boy boy~~ Everyone was helping him…. and he tried till the sky was dark -_- hahahaha

When Baby’s parent left and we spent quite some time talking n talking… enjoying the nite~~ We were so tired that we fell asleep around 10pm… I slept in the tent with my sleeping bag, while Baby slept with half his lower body outside the tent as he claim that the tant was very warm~~

Early in the morning 4am, something bitten my toe… and I thought it was just an insect had came into the tent.. I covered my legs with the sleeping bag and continue sleeping~~ some time later around 5am, I heard so noise from the corner of the tent, I thought that I was just the wind, when I nearly dose off, I heard the noise again!!

I jump out of the tent and wake Baby up… “Baby, Baby wake up….!! There is something inside!!” We shined the torchlight into the tent… and… there was a CRAB!!!! Baby still ask me “with me this security guard, how come this crab can go in huh??” This stupid “security guard” never “protects” me…. Faint… I wanna fire him…!! Hahaha… We managed to “catch” it using the mass-tin, n released it back to the beach…

That was a good start for a great Saturday… haha… We went cycling and some food in the afternoon~~ the pedal of the bicycle drop off in the middle of the path~~ We were supposed to leave on sat evening, however, I ask baby to extend the camping for another day… Ya, that was a very SMART idea… cos, it started raining from evening… We thought that the rain will stop.. Therefore, we decided to go parkway to get some BBQ pit n food…. And the rain dint stop until 11pm..

We started our BBQ, finish our food and…. It started raining again~~ the wind was strong, and the rain was heavy… the material of the tent is NOT WATERPFOOF!! Water start “leaking” into out tent…

Baby used UNBERALLA inside the tent!! WAHAHAHAH… and he was all wet… as he was at the “frontline”..

We were too tired to move and the rain was too heavy… therefore we decided to stay in the tent and continue sleeping~~ ya, another “smart” move…. and the tent started to FLOOD… the rain water was very cold, and everything got wet… and we were soak in water before we decided to get out of our tent, and realize that we are the only survivors on the beach… there were so many tents around the night before.. and there is not a single soul to be found now.. The whole beach belongs to us privately~~ lolx…

The damage and “too-waterproof” tent was discarded… now we now wat is monodome….

We will be buying a waterproof tent!! WE WILL BE BACK…. It was a fun weekend~~ hehe.. With Baby around, I enjoy the 3D2N camp~~

Acident along PIE....

Today, i woke up early to go fetch my dad from changi airport.... i was realli early lor.... his flight will reach Singapore at 1010hours, N i leave my place at 0910hours...

Was happily driving my dad's car, tinking that I will reach Terminal 1 quite early and can just shop ard there.... Driving happily along PIE in Lane 1... happily, happily happily... den just before Paya Lebar there, got many road work... every1 start filtering to the left lane.. I oso followed.... den the KIA in fornt of me JAMMED brakes....!!! I cannot react fast enough.. and BANG!!!! OH MY GOD.... holy shit!!! I hit to the rear of the KIA.... haii... both of us drove back to lane 1... and she alight the car, i followed... den how? I told her to have private settlement... den she ok.. and ask me how much i wanna pay her.... -_- i was like "huh reaction".... I told her to go my dad's workshop den she don want... she want to go her own workshop.... I ask if she can go to dad's workshop again, n she say she will consider... haii... I was having the feeling that I will get a super scolding from dad... is his car lor... and the headlamp n foglame, bumper etc all gone case... I super super super stress.... but gt to act as if i was ok... we exchange details and continue our journey.... she was like 2yrs younger den mi, but she look n act like 4 or 5 yr older... stress... I called Baby million of times but he dint pick up the fone... den i tried calling my sis, dint ans oso.... I was so stress n scare lor.... damn... haii... i very sad cos wat if i gg die den no 1 hear my last voice.... every1 don wanna pick up my call T.T...... the 1st person i called n i called millions of times, but baby fone after ringing keep gg into voice mail... i hate voice mail, that's y i never have voice mail for my mobile.... stupid service... cos when u gt voice mail, it will only ring a few times n it will go into voice mail service. But if u don have the service, it will ring for at least a minute... anyway, i don care abt tis stupid thing now....

When i fetch dad, n when he saw his car... I tink i saw fire on his face and head and eyes and shoulders... Luckily his fren ard... he was quite "cool"... until his fren alight... haii... got a scolding... I realli dint wanted this to happen.... haii.... sad....

Luckily, the lady called back after my dad talk to her... she agreed to come our workshop... and my sis will collect her car tmr... as for my dad's car... haii... i don know wat will i get from him tmr.... gg to work wif him on his car.... i scare~~~

I had been so unlucky recently... so many accidents.... can i consider 4 in a month??

no mood, low morale, sian x 100000times, unlucky.... I need more luck.... i need hugs.... haii... or maybe i am lucky cos the car is not BMW or some expersive car... been tinking abt this whole day... haii... "luckily" is a KIA... -_-''

since afternnon, Suddenly got a feeling that no 1 realli care... maybe i am just not that kind of person that deserve pple's LTC... maybe i am just not good fren enough that pple oso heck care abt mi... just a nobody.. suddenly gt a feeling that i need to reflect on myself... how many will be there when i need some1?? family n friends?? haii~~

Last day of 2009 and 1st day of 2010

I feel I am very very blessed that the very last second of 2009 was with baby. And WE ARE TOGETHER since the very 1st second of the year 2010.... We had dinner with baby's parents and den went mount faber.. Sheena n her family was with us up there too... Baby and myself spent a few hours on mount faber and watched the fireworks... Everything was so nice and so sweet....

Some of my reflections for year 2009:

a) Feel lucky to meet n know buddy... COS HE INTRO BABY TO ME
b) Blessed that BABY CAME INTO MY LIFE
c) Sorry that I might had disappointed a few of my friends... sometime, I might be forgetful in things that I had said or done... Hope everything will be forgiven and forget:>
d) Blessed that my best friends are still my best friends... and thank god that he had send them to me... and thanks that they had been with my throughout my depression/moody/down period... Thanks for all the time spent with me:>
e) I am very sorry that I had been "angry" with baby many times, should have more angry management... and not make baby sad
f) Regret to leave ASTAR cos till now still have not get a full time job. Felt useless cos cant save money to prepare for future.


My goals and aim for year 2010:

a) More angry management (actually is baby want de... -_-'' hahaha... of cos i oso hope i will be able to control my temper... hahaha)
b) Find a full time job
c) save at least 12K to my savings... ( provided that i got a full time job)
d) Slim down and prepare to get married if baby wants to propose and marry me... hahaha...
e) Hoping that everyone will be happy and healthy


For the moment is like that ba... hehe...

ALL THE BEST FOR 2010.... BABY, u must JIA YOU oso!!!!

Christmas 2009

This is the first christmas with baby.... hehe...

I tink 2-3week b4 christmas, baby told me that we gg meet his frens for christmas countdown... CHRISTMAS COUNTDOWN?!?!?!???? FAINT lor... i hate crowded place.... super faint... but oso cannot say anything... so got to agree lor... Sian X 1000 times... -_-'''

Even though i agree to it... but seriously the moment i tink of countdown... i super cannot take it.. maybe cos i getting old liao... hahaha... anyway, i started to call n 'complain' to all my close friends abt this event... complain all the way till christmas eve.... lolx...

Anyway, I pass baby's present to him abt 2weeks b4 christmas... and I insist him to open it... cos i wanna know he like it a not.... cos it's a pair of rabbit... very the cute de hor... hehe

1week before christmas, baby gave me my present.... hmmmm.. is a supplement that i always wanted... hehe...

ANyway, I am still nagging abt the countdown to all my friends....

On christmas' eve, baby told me that we will be meeting his firends at 7pm at Marina barage. That afternoon, Sheena they all came to my place majong... we played till around 6.30pm den baby super unhappy when he knew we are still playing when he came back to my place fm office at about 6pm. Anyway, i oso don really care... haha... I feel so bad now... cos on that day, I was thinking "why do we need to reach so early when the countdown start at 11.59pm??"

Anyway, we rush down there... and in the end, Baby supprise me again... cos we went to Marina Pier... Baby made a reservation at the Riverboat for 2.... :> I would said that it was an expensive dinner... and I was super giddy on the boat, cos the waves was quite rough... But I am really very touched by all the things Baby had arranged.... Atthe end of the dinner, Baby told me that he needs to go to the Gents.... den he came back few minutes later with a present placed on the food tray and behaved like a little waiter... and he passed the present to me... I was very surprise again... cos he had already given me a present already.... i could guess wat was in the little box.... when i open it... it was a part of a fishing equipment components... baby bought me a fishing rod!!!!! and the fishing line and the parts are all pink n red.... he was sad that the fishing rod he couldn't get mi a pink/red one.... Baby, thank you for everything and I realli love it a lot.... especially the Christmas card with me and baby's pictures.... The best thing that I every recieved for this christmas is BABY!!! I wanna spend the next 10000000000000000000000years with baby.... LOVE U MOST...

2nd Oversea trip, Genting 29th Oct 09 - 1st Nov 09

Baby n mi went to the genting (our 2nd oversea trip)....

Went to take the Five Star Travel coach at Boon Lay shopping Centre... On the way the Genting, Baby was very excited... and i was sleeping all the while... haha... he told mi that the scenary was very the nice.... hmm... but i prefer to meet Mr. Zhou Gong.... den reach there he very sleepy lor.... haha... slp till the next morning in First World resort... faint...

1st day, it was raining the whole day.... so baby cannot go theme park... we went to eat Marry Brown... Baby oso feel that it is nice.... den the whole day we just walk ard and take pictures... he super wat lor.... keep insisting to go theme park... raining lor... LIKE A KID... super buai ta han... hahaha...

2nd day, we went to outdoor theme park... play the whole day... i very tired lor... i cannot imagine that next time i old le, still need to go theme park with my kids... i tink i will die lor... a big baby is enough le... every game wanna play lor... faint.. den he insisted to play the tokens games to win a soft toy for me... faint lor, spent a lot n dint manage to get anything... haha... not lucky enough... den it started to rain again.... went indoor to buy the indoor theme park tickets...
Play whole day... tired but very fun.... hehe...

Den stay in the arcade n play games... won many game tickets and exchange for many gifts.. haha...

Went to take the cable-car with baby... he super super happy lor.... haha... love him a lot..

Went in the casino, play RM60 den baby heart pain... faint... den i decided to leave... but we drink a lot of milo inside... haha..

3rd day, after breakfast at the super crowded resort cafe... went walk walk n den go back sg le...

Had a lot fun over there... BAby, LOVE U....

Just some thoughts...

It's just some thoughts.....

Today, Baby bought me a note-book for my new part-time job de *note- taking*...

Initially, i wanted a cover with many many colours.... But Baby feel that the 1 with plain cover is nicer....

His point of view : Simple is nice... life should be simplified....

My point of view : Life should be colourful.... colour adds life to days...

Everyone have different values and different views in different things...

This make each of us a unique personnel...

Anyway, I just choose the 1 that Baby like lor.... ^_^

Today, baby shared with me that 2 of his friends (a couple who had been 2gather for almost 5years) was having some relationship troubles.... It just make me feel that communication is an impt factor being a couple... Hmmm.. How should I put it...? Because the longer period the couple attached to each other (Physically attached to each other, seeing each other)... They always thought that the other party should understand and know them well enough... well enough to know what are they thinking about or how are they feeling... cos the thinking n feeling of "we have been togather for so long already... U should know me"..... But the fact is... Male and Female are TOTALLY DIFFERENT... That's why they are called the "OPPOSITE"... Being 2gather doesn't make u understand/know each other.... If that is the case, why dint u know and understand ALL of ur colleagues since u SEE and BE WITH them 5days per week....? Anyway, as a couple, As years go by... the more u tink that he/she should know u better and better... however, without communication to each other on ur feeling, thoughts, or even ur love, etc... nothing is gonna happen.... the distance between both of u is actually drifting apart... Therefore, sometime being direct and straight-forward, or even asking qns, and telling him/her simple things like :

-U make my day cos.....

-It hurts me when u.....

-the event happened just now actually affects me....

-why are u feeling sad? Had I done something that upset u?

-I don't understand why are u doing this...? In my point of veiw..

-What I actually want is.....

-U make me feels that I am nt as impt as ur frens.... because......

-I need a listening ears today.... I do not need any suggestion at this moment...

-We have not been talking these few days, how about a coffee @ a cafe??

Understanding = communication...

Love requires understanding, muture respects, time, patience, communication, trust, faithful, honestly, caring, concern, believed, toleration (to naggings?? hahaha), and even white lies (lolx).. there might be more, but this is what i can tink of at this moment....

Job offer... (Part time)

Went for a job interview today at NUS there.... they stated tat will let me know by end of this week whether I am selected....

However, they called me this evening to ask me to go sign a contract with them as a part-timer for a maximum of 6mths b4 they can offer mi a full time job... work as a clinical research technician...

So working for an average of 1-3 days per week.... hmmm.. oso gt night shift... but no CPF will be given.... maybe just give it some time 1st ba... anyway I had not done lab job for a year le... oso bo bian..... just do it 1st ba.... but they stated got bond... like.. if I break the contract den need to pay back... gt to wait till Wed when i go see the contract den know...

Anyway, hope this will be a good start... hehe.. Wish me good luck...

Hard to please everyone..... not even myself....

How can we please everyone....?

When I tried to please the 1st party... the third party is unhappy...

so I tried to talk to the 1st party.... and tried to please the third part... den don know why third party seems n sound so unhappy.... or maybe unwilling...?

So wat now? ggo clubing or go Genting?? Genting plan was planned long ago..

Nvm le.... tok to Qi... she said depend on me to feel which of the 2 things more impt... so now... my plan is to go clubing... genting will postpone or c how ba...

Must enjoy life 1st.... dont tink too much....

New job application.....??

This morning, baby told mi he wanted to try the SIA cabin crew... he stated tat the salary is good... cos his friend told him so.... and can fly to many different places... and get good money...

Hmmm... I am upset abt the whole situation... cos, i told him he will nt be in Singapore so many many days.... and there are so many ladies there... and is damn many lor.... not I don have trust in him... but, is there are so many types of gals ard... they will sai ko u till they get wat they want de wah.... cos flying to other places mean u gg stay in the hotels in those places wah... How many times can u reject a temptation (or temptations)? baby like so guai n silly... sumtimes, i tink if pple sell him away, he still help the seller count money lor...

hmmm den I told him his height cannot meet the requirement... (LOL).. anyway... just don tink it a good idea... told him... but he don reaali know wat is my concern.... so he plan to leave mi behind alone while he flying ard?? how many years can he work there... den after the few years there, wat can he do if they do not renew the contract??

What realli trigger me to write this blog was that... he msn mi to help him check his application b4 he send it..... and the email subject is "help mi check if there is anything wrong with the form... tks"...... Hmmm... why so formal, and asking me to check when i stated tat I am worried abt him taking/applying for this job.... I seriously don like the idea that he will be away from me... so wat if the money is high? and i am alone...? anyway... he stated tat he will talk and discuss with mi tonite after work..... He just don't understand.....

Here is part of the conversation we had on MSN just now....

"i send liao e SIA app form...hlp me c whether gt anyting wrng"

Cinderella~~says: -__-''

"i mean i email u, didnt send yet...2nite we discuss"

"$3.5k is e pay ....cool"

Cinderella~~says:oh..

Cinderella~~says:hmm... later the gals sai ko u....

"hmmm....hav confident in me....i love u n is forever.... desheng noe my character de...."

"i wana give u gd life...wana married u... stay @ condo shldnt b any problem in future. hehehe.. 3,5 jus e normal wah...when gt bonus...power liao...."

"nvm 2nite we discuss properly. anyway like wht u say...nt mean i can get it oso"

Cinderella~~ says:....

I wanna say... I also know your character... and I know u.... but I just need u to know.... People do change with time..... and many people go with the flow... there are many other thing more den just money.... I know... Without money, there nothing we can do... however, there are things that money can't buy....

Anyway, it's your decision... it's ur choice... cos it's your life....

HP got stolen... and some thoughts

Today, baby and mi went Orchard walk walk.... den i decided to go Kinokuniya read some books.... haii... stayed there for 2hrs... den after tat... went to shop shop ard take area... den suddenly, baby said Qi missed call him.. den i start searching for my mobile.... GONE!!!!! den used baby hp to call... line was switched off... faint.... i tink some1 stole it fm my bag while i leave it on the floor in Kino while doing some reading... i concentrating reading lor.... -_-

But i somehow very impressed about myself... cos, I dint realli got angry abt this... dint realli angry baby not taking care of mi n my things... My anger management now super good.... sorry, use wrong term... should be SUPER SUPER DAMN GOOD!!! I seriously feel that i changed le... I tink if last time, i will be scolding and shouting at pple.... but, now, i know that if i got angry abt these things.... i will onli be making other pple upset..... cos even if i gt angry abt things, there are certain things that cant be undo..... :>

Hmm.. i called dad and tell him abt the inccident... den ask him to meet mi at westmall.. cos the line under his name... so need him to be there to get the SIM card... Baby said he want to get mi a new mobile.. but i don wan.. hmmm... cos i know he oso very tight... so i ask dad if he ok to get mi a fone... i said i wan an iphone.... he ok with it... so sweet~~~ but den i found out the iphone need ard $800 with my current plan n recontract... i tink is too exp le... so i decided to get E66 (same as dad de... haha) so after all the contract n $80 voucher, the E66 cos $218.... the 2nd fone dad got for mi... the 1st is Nokia 8250 when i got it at the age of 17.

Today, I told baby that I feel that he don realli care n love mi le... den he ask mi why... i told him is just a feeling....

Tat day, they said that after being 2gather for 1-2yrs.. couple feeling towards each other will fade... I don agree... cos i know i will love the 1 I loved forever de...

In long run, I know tat no matter how close a couple is, there will always be disagreement, mis-communication, mis-understanding, lies, doubts, unhappiness... etc... even nagging (haha)... etc... but, if they seriously love each other, none of these outer factors will be able to break the relation ba... tat's how i feel....

Of cos, sometimes, I somehow will be affected by wat happen between us... or even be affected by wat others said... BUT, affected doesn't means that it reduced my feeling towards baby... It make mi tink more about realtionship... of cos, guys won't always understand how we feel... But i hope tat baby will try to know how i feel even if i don tell him wat's in my heart.... i know that the best is being straight forward and tell him everything, but as a gal, we don't realli tell everything ba... (^_^)

Mid-Autumn Festival

Dad, Sis, Bro, Wenda, Baby and mi celebrated our Mid-autumn at out the park near my hse... was very fun.... took many many photos... hmmm... lazy to write.. just show u pix... hehe

Our 1st Oversea Trip - Batam (26th-28th Sept 2008)

Went to Batam with baby last sat.... hehe.. Ya... Our 1st trip out of Singapore..

The place is very nice... Sunset is very very beautiful... and many fishes.. hehe... Show u some pictures 1st before I go further... hahaha...

We board the ferry from Harbour Front... the ferry is called "BatamFast"... I tink baby is very very excited about this trip... cos he keep taking pictures... Actually, he wanted to bring mi go Taiwan de... but I feel that is too expensive le... so i suggested Batam... And we enjoy the trip...





I really love the company of Baby.... He always show so much love and care for me.... is not just in this trip... is since the day that i knew him....

We went to do a 90minutes full body massage, 30 minutes leg/head and shoulder message... and I done a 45min jap-body scrub... baby so funny lor.... keep LAUGHING when the lady massage his feet... he said itchy... LOL... ITCHY????? hahahaha...



I got to say that we eat a lot over there... Cos baby keep saying hungry every moment....haha...
Baby surprised me with a candle-light dinner on the 2nd night.... and I am REALLY SURPRISE... we susposed to got out for dinner tat evening.... den baby suddenly walk to the candle-light dinner de table and pull out the chair and ask mi to sit down.... I was like -_-"""" and ???????....... Den I start thinking "baby wanna take pictures ah?? so brave... other people's dinner and seats oso can sit down ah.....?" Den Baby ask the waiter to serve the food.... :) he is always tat sweet...... and we put fireworks when the food is served... No wonder he insisted to get some firework that afternoon... hehe...

Anyway, he secretly went to book the dinner while we were having our breakfast on the2nd day... Cos the 1st nite, I saw people having candle-light dinner atthe sea-side... No wonder, when having breakfast tat morning, he suddenly tell me that he need to go to the Gents... den never mind lor... he go super damn long lor... i tot he stuck in the toilet bowl lor... hahahahahha.. so the story is... he ran all the way back to our room and take $ to the cashier... no wonder he say eat breakfast don need bring anything... so, is he wanted to secretly "take" the money to do things w/o telling me.... "doing things behind me" ^_^ hehehe... but why he don just bring the $ with him huh... hahaha... anyway, he always so cute de wor.....


On the third day, which is the last day, we had our breakfast and "stole" 15-slices of bread to feed the fishes... Hahaha... Went to a seafood lunch and a day trip... And Baby don'd dare to eat the Gong-Gong.... haha.. so... I decided that, 1 day i WILL make him eat Gong-Gong and drink fresh milk de... haha...




Baby, thank you for everything.... Serious appreciate everything that u had done.... LOVE U MOST!! hehe...